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Sunday, March 30, 2003
hE|o... dIdn't blog for quite some days... sOrRy... something wrong with my cAb|e yesterday... so I didn't log in... hMmm... I have to re-book all my driVing pRactical lessons again.. I don't know why the they didn't capture my bookings 2 days ago... so fustrating!!! lUckily... the server is faster in the morning... so I can book them quite fast... wE||.. my projects are coming up.. qUite packed.. left with a few more tess.. so... eXams neXt! yEah.. have to work hard... I know that I didn't really have much chance to do well this semester so I am looking forward to holidays... yEah... I already have decided wad to do... noT like lAst Time.. everyday stay at home.. so bOreD~ We||.. this is the list of things I might want to do...
1) fIniSh lEaRning my dRiVing
2) tAke my aDvaNced tHeoRy
3) cOmplEtE my puZzle
4) rEad 2-3 series of V.C aNdReWs
5) wOrK!
sOunDs buSy eh? hMmm.. I will try to fully utilise my hoLIdays... hMm.. I might taking extra classes for my frEnCh... Y dO I say MiGht? hMm.. coz I somehow don't really liKe fRenCh... not the language but the people.. hAha.. dUn aSk mE why! I don't want to mentiona nd I don't want to say... hMm.. do you think I should tak jAp? I don't know.. i juz feel like learning another language rather than only know how to speak English and chineSe. wAtcHeD juZ mArRied on fridAy... hM... wOh... the cOunTry they've been to is very nice! uNfoRtunAtE|y is fRanCe and vEnIcE.. hMmm... I might visit there in future... hehee... (oR fOr mY hoNey MoOn). sOmeThiNg wrong with sHaNnen & bRaNdon again.. yEsteRday they met up... but don't know if things go we||.. hOpp they will be back together again... kInda sad if you hear your friend like that ah? Hmm... Okie .. I think I've nothing to say.. juz that I might be blogging lesser in the few coming months.. or mAybE posting shorter b|ogs.. dUn blAme mE! iT's my eXamS!
kRïStå wAnTs hEr hO|idAys despeRaTe|y!!!
if i ain't got you|10:31 AM|

Wednesday, March 26, 2003
sARs!!! I hate thEm!!! nO scHoO| for pRimArY, sEconDaRy, JC and CenTraLisEd iNsTiTutons till 6 April!!! tHe rest... still have to go to school lar... stop dreaming!!! sHow yA somEthinG fRom MOH website:
"The universities, polytechnics and Institute of Technical Education will continue to operate as normal. These institutes of higher learning have a different system of operation from our national schools. Furthermore, the students in our post-secondary institutions are older and are better able to understand the situation and take the necessary precautions."
wHat does this mean? oLder? I tot JC students and CI students.. are about the same age as PolY and ITE students? aRen't we human too... tHe pErsOn who died.. noT yoUng wad~ dUn unDerStand... bUt goOd also.. cOz they won't take away one week of our jUne hoLidays! yEah.. pEoPle.. pls drink more water!! and take care of yourself!!! cAnNot jOke this time... k? tOmOrRow got fRenCh oRa| test... something to look forward to.. hope that this time can help me pull up my results... hMmm.. losta work to do today.. sUpPosely reading up the project presentation.. hMmm.. but sianz leh... hai~
tOdAe... I met my pRimary schoo| classmate, cHenG kWee.. did I tell you that he was my ex-stead? yEah.. we went for lunch.. and after that walked around.. I passed by a puzzle shop... aNd saW a puzZle that I really like! yEah.. bAmBi and his good friend, tHumBer.. hope you know? wE went to toilet after that.. and when I came out of the toilet... hE boUghT the pUzZle for me!! I was so surprised and taken aback!! it cOst $30 plus (foRgot how mUch).. my fAce wAs rEd then... I didn't want to accept then... but he forced me to... so no choice... gUesS he is a nice guy after all...
dOn'T know wad to say and wad to do... bUt I promIsed him to buy him a movie... mAybE duRinG mY ho|idays then... oH yAh.. bought a biRthDay fOr wei|ong already... heheh...
oKie.. niGht eVeRyone!
kRïStå wiShes yOu wE||
if i ain't got you|10:37 PM|

Tuesday, March 25, 2003
gOoD eVeNiNg!! I juZ woKe up... but still feeling very exhausted.. I don't know y... hMm... today is a very short day I guess... aNd I've realised that... after 2 more weeks... nO moRe sChOo|! anD I think it is time to start revising for mY eXaMs... tImE rea||y flies man.. tHe fIrsT dAy oF sEmeStEr 2 seems like yEstErdAy! I dOn'T kNow y... but I somehow feel that this sEmeStEr's pacE is faster than last sEmeSter.. I think this is a good sign.. heheh.... a fEw moRe TeStS to go... aNd I want to do we||.. hAvE to... to at least get a bAnD 1 overall.. even though I do not have much chances to get dIsTinCtiOna... duE to pRevIouS tEsTs... I gUesS I wi|| do well nExT sEm then...
oH gReaT.. tomorrow I do not have to go to school early... no classes actually... but going back to school to do projEcTs...nOw I have 4 pRojEcTs in hand... oNe majOr one... which is the jAvA pRojEct.. and the rest are eConS... dCn... and bIz maNaGemEnt... hOpe to scare them well at least... bEnjAmIn goOd lor.. he can get alots of dIsTinCtiOns... coz his results are fantastic! yEaH.. wish him luck! sHaNnEn is coping quite we|| too... hope that she got into the toP 5% too.. me? maUbE this time I juZ hope that I maintained in tOp 5%... dUn cArE hOw manY dIstIncTions liao.. maybe counting the nUmbEr oF As.. jUz mAinTaIn will do... yEaH!
*NOTE!!! hEy... sOmething to add in.. I met yAzuKa in MiRc... and when i went into the #Mp3Junction.. yAzuka.. auto sent me this message: 'Hi cOkA^kO|a I am an exhibitionist and have just bought a new WebCam. My live Cam feed is at http://www.mtvxxx.com You can see me squeezing my sweet firm little titties. msg me and tell me what else i can do to make you cum"
hahahhahahahah!!! so fUnNy... means that all along he has been sending these messages to anyone in #Mp3Junction.. hahaha... wad a joke!!!
gOoD niGhT eVeRyOne~
if i ain't got you|10:03 PM|

Monday, March 24, 2003
hI... hMmm... nothing much happen today... except that bEnjAmIn was not in a good mood... hE fLunKed his bUsInEsS mAnAgEmEnt tesT.. it is not that he don't know how to do... is that he was sick on that day and he read the question wrongly... I didn't fail.. but didn't do well either.. My cLass hAs oN|y one "A".. --> nOt mE lAhz.. didn't really feel sad.. coz my results are expected.. I knew I read the wrong question too. yaZukA didn't go to work today.. now he is on his way to mEeT jOe (hIs bUtCh fRiEnD) and her stEaD (wHo iS aLsO a gIr|) will be there too... nO mAtTer wAd.. they are still girls wad... wAtEvEa lAhz.. yA yA.. I know I shouldn't be jealous about it... but nVm.. it wi|| only be a while... nOthIng mUch To aDd.. bYe!
if i ain't got you|8:53 PM|

I've learnt to be more optimistic and live to the fullest.. thanks to the person who has been posting me messages... I would like to thank him/ her for not using such harsh words on me... although it is still sarcastic.. bUt it is okie.. I will still take in the advice.. sHaNnEn is now very stressed up.. cOz of bRanDoN... I hope things will go well for them.. they have been through so much.. even near to dEaTh... I hope they will pull through this time... tIme is an important factor.. I think becOz of all the work and stress.. which lead them to many qUaRre|s... but anyway.. I still wish them luck.. as a friend of theirs.. of cOz I would hope that they will still be as happy as ever... gOoD lUcK to you shAnNen! I think I should start working on tomorrow... hAve to pu|| up my socks.. I might still feeling sAd these few daYs but it will be alright soon.. I guess... yAzUka is outside working again.. tOuGh oN hIm... he said he might be considering taking on another job.. wItH a bAsIc pAy.. I hope that he won't stress himself too much.. lOve You yaZukA! mUaCkZ*
hMmM... I forgot to add in... hEard from lindY that.. Jesus Christ is coming down to earth one day and take those cHrIsTiAns away... and the rest will be going to hell.. waD do Ya think? iS the wOrld ending sooN? I gUesS so.. the world is so messy now.. I do not really have much comments.... hOw AbOut yOu? hMmM.. wAd if war breaks out in s'Pore? hAve you tOt of that? sO.. beTtEr live to the fullest now!! gOd b|eSs uS...
kRïStå hOpEs tHe wOrLd wi|| bE wE|| sooN
if i ain't got you|12:19 AM|

Sunday, March 23, 2003
oHhh... I tot only my friends will read my blogs... and I don't have anyone who is that vulgar... even they are... they woN't paste their comments here.. instead they will talk to me personlly.. if they want to use such words... bUt anywAy.. " wHoEvEr" he/ she is... thanks for your adviCe... buT one thing I would like you to note that mOneY is Not eVeRyThing... anD moSt imPorTanTly is fAmi|y warmth... but anyway.. you are right about one tHinG... I should be hApPy... hAha.. yA... cOz pPl outside suffering and I sti|| have a wonderful rOoF over my heAd.. tHanks for that.. I don't know how should I be feeling now... hApPy or sAd... hAhA~ anyway.. sorry to bother everyone... for my accumlated sorrows...
if i ain't got you|10:42 PM|

|ast night, YaN rOnG & LiNdy came to stay at my house.... oVerNiGht... yEaH... we came back form jOvIn's bIrtHdaY bBq pArTy... fOod was nice and the cake was yUmMy too... nOt maNy of thIngS happenEd there... wE||... the 3 of us.. talked until we slept... haha.. woke up at abut 10 am! yEa! mention about school stuffs... yOunG cRusHes.. how silly we were when we were in sEcoNdaRy scH... gOsSiped too of cOz...
wE||.. I felt quite irritated today... mY mUm keep nAgGinG at mE... and I have not gotten over my eConS incidEnt... sOmetImEs I juZ felt like screaming at her and aSked hEr to gIve me pEaCe!! yEs... tOdAe... I had a sudden urge to move out.. yEs.. move out.. cOz sick of the life at home... sCreAm hErE and tHere... nO moRe mOrA| support.. I rather be with my frienDs... at least I am happier... tOmorRow school starting soon... bUt I am still lagging behind... hEy.. dId I tell you that I pass my BaSiC tHeOrY tEst? yEaH... lUcKiLY.. I can juz go and learn driving (dUrInG hOlIdAys).. I don't wish to be at home too often when my holidays come... I will work and learn driving at the same time... tO eArn $$$ and stay away from home once in a while...
mY mUm keep telling me waD.. U thinking raising a family is so easy ah? I wAs wOnDeRing... When did the hell I say it is easY.. aNd I never say that I am going to marry young? wHeRe did she get all the stupid iDeaS about? cRaZy... as if I want to get married early.. sHe sti|| thinks I am the innocent and navie gA|... wHaT tHe hEck... I hate it when she compared me to my sis... oKie.. so wAd I am stUpId? bUt at lEaSt I am hArDwOrKing... nOw you know wHy I say pEoPle doN't appRecIate me? I wAnt to live my oWn |ife man... I need a bReak... wHy I |ove school so muCh... and love to be with my friends? cOz they aPpReCiAte me... and respect for who am I...
kRïStå hAtEs hEr |iFe
if i ain't got you|7:23 PM|

Saturday, March 22, 2003
hi.... sO sAd... I've received my econS test rEsuLts yesterday and it was not I had expected... I got 38/50... bAd eh... yOu want to ask me why? cOz I made stupid mistakes and I've chosen the wrong question.. it is always this case... I was so upset yesterday, yAzUkA and I weNt for a drink. mY iNtEnTiOn was to make myself drunk.. I mean not like totally knocked oUt kind... i wAs sO uPsEt becOZ there goes my dIsTinCtIon... hAhA... I was fEe|ing higH yEsTeRdAy... rea||y... tHen I dIdn't feel so upset that moment of time.. cOz my mind was not thinking properly... aNd mY hEaD will spin whenever I tot of my eCoNs... I didn't dare to answer any of my friEnDs' calls... I am afraid that I will blabber nonsense... haha.. cRysTaL TaN.... dRinK? I know it can't solve problems but I didn't feel upset... I have tot through carefu||y yestErDay... I've realised that I am studying so hard.. not for my sake... but for the pEoPle who have high expectations of me... hAha... weird riTe? aLso.. I've realised that no one has been encouaging me whenever I did badly... bEcoz they EXPECT that I will do well... tHey oNly ask frOm me... but not giving me suPpOrt.. yA knOw waD I mean? wHenever I received bad results.. I don't know who to turn to... cOz all of them will think that I am lying to them... then some feel that I pass can liao wad... then some think that I am better coZ I did better than them.... bUt they dIdn't know another sidE... which is the eXpEctAtIons from my eLdErs and fAmi|y... SomEtiMes I feel like giving up... I am really tired... my mUm didn't give me any stress... but I know very we||.. she wants me to do well... IncLudIng my fAtHer... I always encougrage pPl to do wHaTeVeA they want... but I've to tell them that... sTi||.. they have a price to pay... aNd I've gotten mine... I hAve to exCe| in these 3 years...
I dOn't want to have this kind of life anymOrE... I rather to have pOoR resUlTs... then pPl will encourage me and givE me rewards when I've improved or I've done well... fOr now.. I don't have a drive to move on... tHaT's y I am sick of eXams and tEsts.. no one is there to share my jOy... cOz it is expected... nO one is there to share my sorrows... cOz no oNe understands that whY I fElt that I've did badly...
luCkIly... yaZuka... praised me that I've did we|| for my DCN... that made me hapPy for a while... yoU knoW waD kind of support I need noW? I nEeD ppL to appreciate mE... nOt my rEsUlTs!
kRïStå wAnTs A bReaK fRoM eveRyOnE
if i ain't got you|12:30 PM|

Thursday, March 20, 2003
hEllo!! jUz came back from interview... hUh? oH.. I am currently doing a project on my management studies and my group and I are supposed to interview a manager and... I approached my uNcLe... hMmm... learnt quite alot... and I seemed to know my uncle's jOb better... bUsY dAy tOdAe... dUrInG my 4 hour break today.. I went ahead with my jAvA pRoJecT.. and I made it!! I made my gRaPhIcA| uSeR intErfAce!!!! yEaH!!! mY gRouP memebers did it too! 3 cheers for all of us!!!... I think our group has some hope after all... hAhA... then after school... I did another project... aNd we already did more than half.. thank goodness! I hope I can finished off my projects ASAP! sTi|| have eCoNs project.. haven't even started!!! sIanZZZ... hMmm... sUpPose to go to a freNcH concErT today.... bUt cAn't mAke it... bEcOz of my interview...
tOdAe... zHi qIang was feeling quite fustrated... I guess he is too stressed... worried about him... I hope nothing will happen... hAi~ tAke cArE my fRiEnd.. hMmM... nothing much to say now.. tOmorroW meeting yAzUka.. hope he won't change the day again...
bYe bYe!!!
kRïStå tirEd
if i ain't got you|9:19 PM|

Wednesday, March 19, 2003
pAiSeH... pAiSeH... sO pAiSeH!!!! yA know what happen? tOdAe... I was wearing low waist jeans.. then my panTies can be shown a bit at the back... bEnjAmIn spotted it... and told me.. he sOmEmoRe said very loudly!! iN the spoRts hA||!! ( he gOt bAdmIntoN tourament tOdAe).. sO pAiSeH... damN paiSeh.... nOt tHaT bEcOz he spotted it... beCOz he said it so loudly and so casuallY... kAoz... he somemore messaged me and say... " iT is only panties what.." wHat a thinG to sAy!!! I didn't know why he say that lor... I was so shocked as he treated if nothing much had happen... nVm!! hE goNna gEt it form me nExT time.... (sO pAiSeH!)
tOdAe... I had a auditon... it is for the coming orientation I think.. about a person should not only have good results... but he muZ gIve pPl good impression by dressing up himself well... sometHing like that lar... educational thing.. dOn't know if I will get the role..... the whole audition is like that... you are suppose to stand on one position.. then introduce yourself and start reading the lines... (tHe caMeRa is filming...) a||of us muz at least do two times... hEhE.. the feeling is differentfrom being on the stage...
tOdAe quite happy loRz... yAzUka called me a few times... heheh.... aNd he responded one of my messages... heheh... seeing him soon this FriDay... cAn't wait!!!
aCtua||y no class today.. but becOz of doing a project.. I went back to school lor... hEhEhE... Hmmm... quite free this week... coz not many tests liao... =)
yazUka has a new lObaNg... aLoeVeRa tHeRaPhY... haha... nO cHeMiCals.. maybe buying the gel and eat... heard that it makes ur skin smooth... make u slimMer tooo.... hAhAha... I am going to slim down!! eAt and S|eEp too mUch~ ^oo^
>>>>> kRiSta lOvEs yAzUka >>>>>
if i ain't got you|11:49 PM|

hAd jAvA pRaCtiCa| test today.. it is fine... I think better than last year... at least this time I can run and compile my program... yEaH... for this week... there won't be any tests for me.. so quite relaxed... hAhA... actually tomorrow no school.. but have to do project... so have to go back to school lorz... tOdAy nothing much to say.. yA know wad? I dreamt of getting married last night.. tO yAzukA... hahah.. the feeling is nice lorz.. but I don't know if this dream will happen in many years down the road... I think you are all curious... whether I want to get married to yAzUka.. well if everything goes well for the both of us... why not? hehehe! bUt never really dared to look into the future... coz I really have to manage my studies and career first.... thAt applies to yAzUka too... hE is workingon in this career now... wIsH him lUcK! yEah.... can stay up late tonight again... cOz tomorrow I go to school late... about 1100? hMmmm.... we||.. I think that's all... gooDnIghT everyone!
nEvEr wish to lEaVe you yAzUka.... never coz I love you....
&&&&& LeFt bY kRïStå &&&&&
if i ain't got you|12:14 AM|

Monday, March 17, 2003
fU*ck the fRenCh... I am getting to hate french people more and more.... sUx.... todaE I met a french guy on the net... then we had some kind of video conferencing... ( hE cAn't see me but I can sEe hIm... *lUcKilY)... aT fiRsT we aRe toKing cAsUa||y... then it is quite fun to see his face and hear him talk.... eVen my sIS was fAcinateD! tHeN afTeR tHaT... I tHiNK hE sHiFtEd hIs wEb cAm.... and then he asked me..." dO I wAnnA sEe mOre?" tHeN... he juZ showed me hIs ****... yA lAr... nO dOuBt... dAmN disgUsting... somemore his fAce KNS.... wAd the hE||... I gave him a piece of shit.... (sCoLD hIm LaR).. and he tot I wanted it... mY sister and pRiMaRy 1 cousin were beside me.... |uckily I covered the compUtEr sCrEen in time... or esle... hAi~ yAzUkA was vErY piSsEd off... and wanted to sue him no matter where is he.... hE sAiD lUcKilY he fRenCh gUy is not in sIngaPoRe... or else..... I bLoCked him in my mSn and ICQ anywAE.... hE even said... if I stayed on... he would show me whatevea I want..... mAyBe I should sAvE it.... then send to the whole world! hahahah!!!!
tOdAe i drank cHing teNg for my dessert... let me tell you something... IT SUCKS! yEsH... tAsTeLEss! wAsTe my $$$.. dOn"t ever go NYP fOoD jUnCtIon and drink cHinG tEnG!!!! yAzUkA now working lor.... miZ him so mUcH... hOpe that I can see him everyDaY... waiting for every fRidAy to cUm.... hAi~ I hope our lOvE sti|| stay on......... tOdAe's eMilY bIrThDaY.... my gang and I gave her a bracelet... tHis fRidAy... hAvE to go and buy jOvIn's pReSent... my funds running low lor..... sianz~ gOtO sAvE noW! kK... tomorrow java pRaCtIcAl test... haven't touch anything... hahah~ prepare to f|unk.. maybe?
^^^ fRenCh pEoPle... wO bi shi Ni ^^^ (mAybe not all ah?)
if i ain't got you|11:25 PM|

Sunday, March 16, 2003
yipeE!!! nO moRe mOoD sWiNgs! nO mOrE bLoAtEd StOmAcH!! hAhAha... my mEnSeS finally arrived! wAied for damn long man... I think it was my mood swings which made me very depressed over the weeks.... nOw I am fee|ing better .. at least for a while... hAve the mood to do my homework too... maybe the next two weeks.. homework not so tedious and not so many tests too.. but have to buck up for my jAvA pRoJect of cOz... hAi~ but today I had very painful cRamps... sian ... but luckily it is on sUndAy and I was not outside.. pHeW! I think that's the only thing that upsEts me most.. hAhAha... hey``` yA know ... I dreamt of something terrible yesterday.... I dreamt that I had an affair with 2 gUys!!! and I am still wih yAzUka.. oH gOsh.. I don't thing that will happen to me! OnE is bAd enough.. somemore is 2! tOmorrow is another new week... so I wish I will feel refreshed! oH dEaR... I am missing yAzUkA again... seen him only yesterday.. and I am missing him more and more... how... how to go overseas and study if it is like that?! sIanz...
AnYwAe... I saw anN's ( mY sEcOnDaRy cLaSsmAtE) boYfRiEnd yesterday... he quite good looking one.. even yAzUka thinks so.... hahaha... hmMm.. good for aNn then...
hMM funnI thing is that although I am having my menses now... bUt I am still eating quite alot... hOpe it will stop by tomorrow.. cOz I am getting fAtter and faTter.... i don't wanna be a pig!
mIz yOu loTs yAzUkA... miZ uR bEaR hUgS aNd miS uR wEt kIsSes!!! hEhE*
if i ain't got you|10:17 PM|

sAd sOnG ah??? hahA... anyway... had a fun day todaE... went out with yazUka and bought eMilY's birthday present. dUring the outing... I got angry with yAzUka.. coz I looked in his hP inbox and happened that this girl, Kathleen... her messages all start with "Honey...." and one of them was " MiZ you" at the end... I really got jealous.... I waS cOld towards him then... and he knew why... hE explained to me that everyone in the office called him "Honey".. ya know why? cOz he ordered a drink in kOpitIam and said he wanted to add honey... then people call him "Honey" --> more of a nick you see... and as for the mIz you... he said that like only a friend saying he/she misses him... out of being polite.. even his guy friend do that... mAybe I shouldn't be so sensitive after all.... but you will naturally get jealous if ur bf/gf receive this kinda messages rite? anyway... Kathleen has a daughter...
wenT to aRcAdE too... in the end... I used up the tokens quite fast... first time like that... in the past I used them for quite long ya know... hAhAha... I am quite good at playing games K... hahahA~ tomorRow has to start work liao... sianZ~ k k la... going off liao.. byE byE* mUaCkZ!
yAzUkA... lOvE yOu Ti|| In eND... yOu Will nEvEr B foRgEtTeN...
§§§§§ kRïStå loVeS yAzUkA sO mUcH §§§§§
if i ain't got you|12:42 AM|

Friday, March 14, 2003
tIrEd... tIrEd.... tIrEd..... fRiDaY only.... then so tired... do I really drained myself out this time? tOmOrrow maybe meeting yAzUka again... bUy pReSeNt for emily... tOdAe got meet him too, but for a short while only. SpEnT the rest of the day at his house watching the mOnKeY kInG vCd... and you know what... we went back to childhood gAmEs! ya know the scissors paper stone... then the loser have to be hit by the back of the hand? I woN most of the times.... but shiTz... when yAzUkA wins... he really hit my hand hard lor! hAhA.... so my hand ended up redder than hiS! (hIs sKin tHicK Ah... sO no matter how haRd I hit... sTiLl A pIeCe of cAkE to Him) nOne of us cRy... but we laugh like kiDs... still got other games like trying to smack each other hands... etc.. if you all can still remember... I remembered that when I was in primary School... I hit a person real hard that she cried! oH gOsH! I didn't know she was so soft! mAyBe I plaY too mUcH liao... hahaha... luCkIiy yazUkA nOt like that! fUn eh!
hmmMmm.. so far next week only has pRaCtiCal jAvA test... soo kinda relaxed... but have to prepare loads of things... like french oral test and jAvA project... so tired... eCoNs results comIng out nxT week... also no hope eh... hahaha! kk.. got to go now bAbEs and dudEs... cYa!
***kRïStå fee|ing rEaL wEaK***
if i ain't got you|11:56 PM|

Thursday, March 13, 2003
hApPi bIrThDaY tO yOu,
hApPi birThDaY To yOu,
hApPi bIrThDaY To sHaNnEn....
hApPy bIrThDaY tO U....! (* I really own you this birthday song... coZ I was busy filiming then... so never sing ah...)
hApPi 18th bIrThdaY shaNnen! sO like the sUrPrIse todAe? I tOt of iT onE leh! Hehehe.... (hUrRy uP thAnK mE tHaNk me!) *jOkIng!
wE||, todAe is sHannen's 18th bIrThDay... I gave her a keychain from pErlini silVer... she said it is nice! hMM... bEnjAmIn bought a pencil that she aimed for a very long time... nOt The cHeaP chEaP one leh... I think about $8+... thEn... WeI lOng & zHiQiAng bought a Lilo & sTiTcH watch for her.... &... emiLy, xinHui, mEliSsA, dOrEeN & pEiTinG bought a EnYoRe (dOnKeY fRom WiNnIe the pooH) for her... I think can sit on it one... bUt shaNnen dun want to sit on its face!
oUr wHoLe clAss gave her a bIg suRpRise today.... wE bOuGht her a cAkE and shE waS so PaIseh! haHa should have seen her actioNs! sHe waS suPpose to use her mouth and take out a candle from the cAke.. and then pEiTing pushed her face slightly... hAhA.. crEam on hEr face... gOt reD colOur alSo... hAhA.... I was busying filming the whole thing....
aFtEr that we took some photos and wEnT to the librAry and I continued to film my friends.... altHouGh it is not allowed... hahahha! tHey fIlMed me too also K... shaNnnen said she will burn into a cd for me... yeah! and also... she will paste the photos in the mSn groUps... remember to go and sEe k? gOt my fAce... hahahah!!!
hMmM... woke up at 10 pm juz now... tomorrow morning somemore got test... but I've finished revising... lUckily... tOdae didn't see yAzuka... cOz... he got some things on... so it is poStpHonEd to tomorrow... yEah.. finally can get to see him.... and one more thing.... did I tell u that he quit his school? yEah... now he has gone back..... duNnO why the sudden change of mind.... I will ask him some other time.... I jUz hope that he don't stress himself.... alrIgHt dEar? oVerall... has a fun day!
I lOvE yOu yAzUkA! mUackZ.....
1) A SAD STORY: A little boy was so jealous of his new born brother that he put poison on the nipple of his mom while she was asleep. Now comes the saddest part - the next day their driver
died.
2) A Sardar gives 36 roses to his girlfriend, who thrilled, undresses, lies down, spreads her legs & says: "This is for the roses" Sardar: "Why, Can't you find a vase?"
3) Wife to Doc: An ant entered my vagina. Please help and take it out. Doctor removes her panty and starts making love to her. Wife (angrily): What are you doing? Doc: This is the only way. I will drown the bastard.
hAhaha~~~
if i ain't got you|11:53 PM|

Wednesday, March 12, 2003
hE|o... hmmm... seems that that guy*.... came to terms with shaNnEn... haha.. good for the both of them! one thing is that they are able to give way and say sorry to each other! # cHeErS for ThEm!#
hMMmm.. tomorrow is my StAtisTiCs test.. so wish me good luck k? aNyWaY... mY group got C+ grade for the jAva pRoJeCt presentation... it is okie lorz... eXpEcTeD one.. so today shannEn, bEnjAmin & I told WeiLoNg &zhIqIang to quit playing NEO-PETS! yEsH... don't go and play leh.. addicted one leHz... I think they are more serious in their work now..*hOpE so.. tOdAe after school... bEnjAmIn asked me to accompany him to bukiT bAtOk... coz to meet one of his IRC "gAl" friend. Since he accompanied me in school yesterday... then I accompany him lorZ.. but we separated there and he went to meet hiS friEnD.. mE lEh? stAy at cofFeE bean to sTuDy... (wAiting for bEn at the same time). sUppoSinglY he muZ come back and accomapny me to study but he wanted to go some place instead.. dUe to some reasons... I said I wanted to go home... then I sleep lOrz....
aNyway.. when I reached bUkIt bAtok juz now.... I went to check my bank account... the on the way... I saw 2 aUnTies fighting!!!! I was so afraid to cross over them... afraid of being hit... so I stood there for a moment and paSsed over if I had the chance... dUnOe why fight to solve problems.... sO sCaRy~
tOdAe jOvin messaged me... told me a secret... i toT what... she said today is the 5th month anniversary that she idolize "lee hOm".. what the hE||? nOw you know what an asShOle is! hAhAhA!
tOmOlo i will be meeting yAzUka... coz he said Friday not free to meet me.. so bRoUgHt forward... thaT's why I am revising Friday test now.... wish me luck again K?
tHings are not really getting better between yaZuKa and I.. I hope nothing will happen you see... I love him alot..
tOmOrroW is sHannEn's birThDay~ yUhOo~ gonna give her the present.. tomorrow then I tell you what I give.. *cOz shAnnen reads my b|og almost everyday.... so heHe...*gRiNs
yAzUkA~ this is a message juZ for you B A pErSOn Full Of LuV & liFe, StAy siMpLe yEt hApPy, wHeN tHiNGs gO WrOng, dUn gO bLuE. JUsT PrAy & sAy "i wiLL gEt tHrU". AlwAys rEmEmBEr I'LL B dErE 4 ù! LuV yA!
♫æææ kRïStå worKiNg hArD æææ♫
if i ain't got you|11:24 PM|

Tuesday, March 11, 2003
hEyLo.... bLoGing in school now.... bReAk mahZ... now my fingers are a bit rusty... aCtUa||y.. nothing much to talk about... juZ that I will be having my baSiC thEory test today... wIsH me lUcK k? wE||, yAzUka is quiting his school.. coZ he has no interest in his course. tHe funnY theing is that I am not angry...instead I don't mind that he quits! hMmMm... why ah.... coz I started to think of the incident that happened to me a year ago... nO one encouraged me to go poly... bUt I think JC life sucks! I hate it to the core!!! In the end... becOz I juz wanna be happy... I chose pOly... since yAzUka is not happy studying there... why force him like what others force me in the past to go JC? aS long he is happy... I am happy! =) aFter this... he might going to the aRmy... oF cozZ I will miZ him... but NS is a route that every guy has to go through.
I was juz feeling quite happy yesterday becoZ the knot inside me was untied, I cme to terms with yAzUka about his schooling matter... bUt now... I start to worry about myself... bEcoz of my studies.. I do not have the mood to study lately... mAYbe I don't feel that I will do well... sTuDy also no uSe*? nAh... I am not so sure.. juZ totally lose confidence in myself. dO you thik I can still do as well as last semEsTer? dOn't know leh... hai~ I know what are u thinking sHanNen.. (If Crystal fails... PIGS wi|| fLy ah*) hAi~ you guys might think it so... bUt fail is not the word.... is MAINTAIN... that's very important to me.. I don't know what gone wrong.. I am still trying to figure out.. maye I lost my fighting spirit? No matter what I will still try my best loRz... 2.5 years more to gO... and I wanna do well... I have to.... pleaSe bless me k?
}}}kRïStå sToNe{{{
if i ain't got you|12:17 PM|

Sunday, March 09, 2003
jUz woke up..... time 12.42AM.... that's my nap... but I am goign to sleep soon again.... but first I have to b|oG. I woke up quite early today to go toSSDC to do some multiple choice pRaCtiCe... only one session per practice and one practice is 40 min... wanted to go for 2 sessions.... but ya know what... the instructor kept looking at my answers and mistakes... so embarassing... so I only went for one session...
After that... I went to meet a few oF my sEcOnDaRy schoo| friends( yAn rOnG, ce|eStE, linDy and kAte). wE went for lunch first... dIm sAm~ sLuRPz...after that... we went to hEeRen annEx... linDy, yAn rOng and I bought the same shiRt.... hahaha~ then we proceeded to tAkAshimaYA... then t whiSmA.... wanted to buy jOvIn's birthday present but in the end... we didn't buy... hAhA.. cause can't find what we want...
wHeN I reached home and had my dinner.... I wenT to sleeP.... until now lorz..... sO tired... sChOo| is going to reopen soon ya know..... hAi~ tomorrow have to rush all my school homework! cYA!
kRïStå sleePiNg agAin
if i ain't got you|12:51 AM|

Friday, March 07, 2003
heLo dudes~ vErY tired today... tE|| you why.... tHis morning...I woke up at 7.25am... preparing to go to SSDC...hAiYo... the classes ah... quite bring lorz... but luckily the lectureres not serious kind... know how to joke... bUt I can tell you that I learnt quite alot and have clarified some doubts... I hope to pass my bAsic TheOrY!!! after that.. I went to yAzukA's house... we watched vcD.. +hen after that we were hungry... wE ordered KFC( fAmilY meAl*) and Pizza Hut spicy dRuMbLets.... chiCken fEaSt leh~ Hahaha... then while waiting for the delivery.. yAzUkA asked me to drink cough medicine.. suppose to drink 10ml... but I drank 20ml! oPpS~ I dozed off quite quickly... then the dElivEry man came.... and we eat lorZ but I am still feeling drowsy~
aFtEr eating... I went back to sleep immEdIately... so.. slept for about 3 hours! like that never go and watch mOvie lorz... hAi~ now still feeling drowsy..... k k larZ gtG now... aU rEvoiR!
@@@kRïStå feEling dRoWsY@@@
if i ain't got you|11:32 PM|

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helO~ fEe|ing alright today! uRm... this morning I went back to school and finished up my PrActica| with sHannEn, bEnjAmIn, zHiQiAng and Wei|onG... then zHiQiAnG went to meet his girlfriend... and bEnjAmIn went to play with hiS wifE* oPps... bAdMiNtoN lorZ... hE lOvEs bAdMiNtOn and now there's a interschool competition...he wisheS to be the "sTaR", so wish him luck k?
NeXt wEi|ong, sHaNnEn & I went to bIsHan and ate MOS burger... hAhA yUmP~z... tHen went to the popular bookstore and search for the bAsIc dRiVing TheOrY bOok... neW versIon $6++.... compared to older version $3++... hAi... but new version has multiple choices! sO friends... if you are planning to take bAsIc tHeOrY test... borrow the book from me k?!
aFtEr I went home... I asked my cOuSiN to drive me to SSDC.. cOz I wannA to enrol as a student there... this package requires me to attend 2 lectures before I can take my bAsIc tHeOrY tEst... my test is next tUeSdAy... so I have to go for lectures before that day... whiCh is tomorrow.... nO chOiCe for mE... hAi~ iT starts at 8.35am leh...... there goes my sleep again~
sO bettå sleep early todAy ah... hM... I've got nothing esle to say... juZ here to wish everyone here we||!!! yAzUka... finally meeting you tomorrow!! C you sooN!
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if i ain't got you|12:20 AM|

Thursday, March 06, 2003
soRRy gUys... I would like to apologise to everyone... my bloGs are not very healthy... always sound sad rite? I try to make it more lively k? sO sorry about it... but my life has not really turned better... I wonder if I am pessimistic or what... but I am still finding my light of happiness.... mAyBe I juz dOn't know what I really want.... oR maybe I had too much happiness in the few years back? I am still fighting on.... gOoD night everyone!
====kRïStå wants to look for HappineSs====
if i ain't got you|1:34 AM|

Wednesday, March 05, 2003
WhAt a bOring niTe~ *cOuGh cOuGh-- sNeEzE!!* hAi~ still having flu and cough.. what a holiday... I've got nothing to do... that's Y I blog.. I spent my whole day at home today and yAzUka is in seminar today... going to give a speech cOz he is promoted to A.E... I sianz lor...... no promotion... nothing to look forward to... juZ testS testS testS... revised StAtisTics today... but only one chapter! Hahaha... I am kinda bad in my statistics so have to start early... hmMm... yEsterday... I went back to NVSS(My secondar School) and saw Mr Chan(Phyics Teacher), Mr Latiff(Maths Teacher), Miss Phua(Chemistry Teacher) and Mdm Koh(Vice-principle).. We tok and tok and tok and they asked my why I chose poly... I think they asked alot of times already... bUt is is okie! Ha~ then after that... Kate went to perm her hair and I waited for her... nOt bad eh... but then she messaged me and said that her hair is straight again becOz she kept pulling and pulling.... $105 lEh!! aFter that I went to yAzUka's house and have dinner.... tHen I became pig.... slePt there... hahahha.... nOw waiting for yAzUka to come home... or finding anyone to tok to....
Alright! gOt to Go now.... cYa~~~
#kRïStå siCk again#
if i ain't got you|9:29 PM|

Tuesday, March 04, 2003
yOz ppL~ I'm back.... from HELL! Yes~ tOday... is the start of my hOlidaYs! oF cOz I did go out... but I didn't really enjoy much todaE... cOz I have a cough and a sore throat... I can't barely hear myself now! oKie... let me tell you what happened today...
In the mOrning... I woke up at 7.45am and went to meet yAzUkA for breakfast... yEs... I was so drowsy cOz I ate medicine before I went out... yAzUkA said I walk like a sOtOng! hAhAhA~ wE ate BuRgEr KinG... it was nice... Then after that... I went to meet bEnjAmIn first... both of us wanted to watch "mArRying the Mafia" but sHanNen didn't want to watch, so we met her later... bY tHe Way... the show is okie, not as fantastic as I tot... hAha... tell you something that happened in the cinema... bEnJamIn bough a large popcorn and was placed in between us... then I accidently knocked it... and I said " ehhh...Ehh..Ehhh" as it was going to topple over... believe me... IT WAS IN A SLOW MOITION WHEN IT TOPPLED!! But I didn't know why bEnjAmin didn't grab it... he juz froze and let the popcorn fell onto him...He said he knew I was calling him and knew that the popcorn was going to fall... but didn't know why he didn't go and catch it... In the end... he had to eat popcorn from his lap!!!
HaHa~ yOu should have seen it!
aFter the movie... while waiting for sHaNnEn... bEnjamin and I went to take a neo print... hAhA candid shot!.. qUite nice... bEnjAmin said it is nice too... =) lAtEr... wE mEt ShAnNen... and we walked around Far East... then shortly after... shaNnEn went to meet her brAnDon... lefT bEnjAmin & I... aCtuAlly wanted to go to his house and look at his dogs... but I felt very tired... so I headed home...
aFter dinner... I ate medicine... and pOp... I was asleep~ then yAzUka woke me up... saying that the MRT track got some problems... no train... and at the sametime he is in YCK... so he came over to my house for a while...
hEhehehe...feeling quite excited.... coz tomorrow going back to my seconday school with Kate.. I forgot what time we are meeting... hahah... hope she will message me later... alrite... feeling hungry now!!! tOk to ya nxt Time!
dArLiNg... I lOve you~
KrïsTå gOinG to FinD somEtHing to mAkAn~
if i ain't got you|12:09 AM|

Monday, March 03, 2003
hMmm.... jUz finsihed watching Tv... yeah~ dOn't know what to do now leh... maybe going to continue my vCDs~ tHe mOnkeY kIng! yEsH... hE is so cute Eh... hMmmm... jUz received a message from kAtE... she said that Christine(mY fOrMeR mAnAgEr) was sacked... don't know why... kinDa feel sad... dOn't know if I could still work there next time... iF not I really got to go and seach other jObs...hArD eh.... aNyway... I am bOrEd... yAzUkA not back home yet... so watching vCds to pass time lorz... sianz.... kK lar.... dOnt' want to blog already... I also don't know what else to say already.... gOoD niTe!
wAtChinG vCdS~ dOn't disTuRb!
if i ain't got you|1:15 AM|
